Reminiscences

I still remember those days when we spent hours together. Neither the flowers which blossomed nor their fragrance could be noticed…life was so busy. Watching around in the corridors, waiting for a moment to be spent was so important that the rest of the world was out of sight. Those occasional smiles and exclamations between conversations were things which made a world of memories. Those days when I felt being the central element of the whole universe, the space. While standing on the earth, I felt being on top of the skies. When my soul flew high competing with birds, when I could praise my luck and kiss its beauty. Such are the reminiscences of those days.

Now there’s nothing……not even you,

Nothing is more disgraceful than a living.

When
every morning I wake up with your thoughts as I used to,
every moment I still search for you as I used to,
every such moment I realize that I lost you.
No more do I feel as the central element of the space, no more flies the spirit of love or life. Dead it is as am I.

Want to cry out loud for you,
Shout out my agony,
Yell around all my thoughts,

But …one call of yours made me realize that, life is calling

Now that I know I make a mark on you, may not be my smile but a teardrop may do that. Affection has taken root in you. I know it…for sure me and my words may not be everything but do mean something to you. Deep down in your heart, silently did they take a place, a corner which is inaccessible…not even to you?

Today when I stand with my eyes closed, I feel it, realize that when I think of you the very thought induces a sort of cosmic energy into me, gives me the power to conquer the pains I suffer because of our distances. Life gets filled into my lethargic soul and makes me live again with the hope......you will be back and the day is not very far when I be called again….